as we were

we were alone
for the first time,

but we've known
for quite some time.

at the grocery store
you stood close

as we picked out produce together
and discussed marinades.

i didn't mind the children
you called your own -

from a previous life
or marriage or affair.

you let me sit
in the front seat of you car

and my heart swelled
with lust and triumph.

but when she returned to you
and your brother came back...

with your family swarming,
i was asked to sit in the back again.

angry, complacent, trampled,
i wanted to go back

to last night, in my dreams,
where you embraced me as we slept.