while you were missing

while you were missing i was missing you

dearly. my heart pounded heavier on afternoons
as the sun peeked through the fog

threatening to puncture the venetian blinds
in our out-dated kitchen.

i slumbered in the dent on the sofa
where you usually sit and play video games

where i nestle into your lap and watch
your hands flexing and maneuvering.

i slept diagonally in the bed

i tried to occupy two spaces, just for a few days.

the movies just make me miss more
that we never watch these kinds of movies
when you're around. you have better tastes.

i kept my phone in hand as often as possible

so when you chime for me i am in and on
and filling my ears with the sound of your voice

accent fading as i reply and we laugh together.

as happy for you as a wife could possibly be

she is still young.

if i were stronger then, but am grateful now
that i do not need strength to love you.